TGIF! What a week it has been! This week I paid close attention to how people talk to me, normally I don’t always do that, I always took a “It is what it is” kind of attitude. This morning I call my Mom back because she had called when I was in the middle of a call at work. Her house recently got hit with lightning which blew up the stove, refrigerator and phone. I had an incredibly stressful morning. I start work very early, around 5:30 AM so it was nice to give her a call and just chat. She told me that everything is back in order in her house appliance and phone wise. I told her that was great. Then she just ended the conversation without asking me how my day is going so far, since she knows I have been suffering from some depression. I had a whole lot of positive and exciting updates I wanted to fill her in with, but I got the feeling she didn’t want to hear it. When did humans stop truly caring about others and how they are really doing? Instead most people tend to put themselves first. I am a Christian and I put Jesus first in all I do. I don’t expect everyone to have the beliefs that I do, but proper morals and respect for others I do expect.
The reason I was paying close attention to how people treat me when they talk to me, is because after talking to certain people I feel like crap and I guess I am so used to being treated like crap that I am immune to “hearing” it. My mom has a special talent of passive-aggressively putting me down or doubting that something good will happen for me. I love my Mom, but I am going to limit my interaction with toxic people. (The people who don’t edify you, they just beat you down and make you feel like crap.)
— April 12, 2016