Hello again everyone 🙂 I hope that your weekend was a good one. My weekend was okay it was filled with some mild to extreme anxiety but luckily it was short-lived in both cases.
What I am finding is when I wake up too early in the morning and cannot get back to sleep my anxiety seems to be very highly ring the day. For example today I went to a department store to get my son some shoes and me a few new tops since I have lost a lot of weight and have not really replaced many of my clothes. We also went out for breakfast before that.
I woke up at 4:30 in the morning and could not get back to sleep so I just laid in bed until about 6:30 and then I decided to get dressed get ready to go out for breakfast for around 7:15 AM. The restaurant was good except for there was a very large very noisy and rowdy group 2 tables over which is very rare for this restaurant to say open at 7 AM is usually very quiet with maybe 10 guest at the most and they’re usually regulars on Sundays because they were vulgar at times it increased my anxiety and I think one of the wait staff said something because they toned it down a little and others in the restaurant we’re noticing also how loud they were. So we left the restaurant and came home so my son can get his phone and I rested for about 30 minutes because it was too early to leave because the store wasn’t open yet. I drove to Kohl’s and did not have a problem at all. Inside the store it was very warm to me. I also walked around the store for five minutes or so just looking at other things. There was a line at the checkout but I was the first one there in the checkout lady was very slow and I can feel a panic attack coming on. I was very hot and sweating, my pulse was very fast, I was lightheaded, I felt this impending doom feeling, all of the usual panic attack symptoms as well I was having. So I got in my car and I put the air conditioner on cold in blew the fan on my face while I was driving which seemed to help some. My heart was still racing while I was driving but I was okay. When I got home I felt like I had jelly legs. So I just got a bottle of water and relaxed watching old comedy/family shows. My panic attack lasted another 30 minutes after I got home it was completely gone within the hour from when it started.
So I have to learn how to turn off the worry at night when I wake up to go to the bathroom and then cannot fall back to sleep. That seems to be the biggest trigger to my anxiety in the morning and the next day. Since I am going through peri-menopause these are normal symptoms I guess from what I am reading especially waking up at night and not being able to get back to sleep as well as the increased anxiety.
I have cut out all caffeine and sugar from my diet which has helped tremendously and also I believe is the reason I have lost 32 pounds to date since January 1. I also keep in anxiety journal that helps me keep track of the frequency of my panic attacks which helps tremendously
Until next post – Be Blessed!