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Journal: The Day Before Mothers Day

Well, it is the day before Mother’s Day. As you may know, I am a single Mom and I look forward to being appreciated at least one day a year. I put out a few hints over the last week to my son, some inexpensive ideas for months day, starting with a simple eCard. At this point in my life, I am taking a break from taking to my parents. The straw that broke the camels back was the trip to North Carolina. I am tired of toxic people in my life, even if they are your own blood. Anyways, I told my son despite our differences I sent my mother an eCard. To be honest, I would be happy with just a simple eCard, anything just to be acknowledged! Lately, my son has been distant to me and that worries me. Is he just being a normal 20 year old? Is it his unofficially diagnosed Aspergers? How can I feel alone when there is another human being in the house? Well, that is how I have been feeling lately and that is why I am sorta looking forward to something for Mothers day.

I asked one of my male frinds I met online but have never met what his plans for Mothers Day is and he responded “Normally our family spends the day at my parents house we cook and have fun.” To me that sounds like the perfect Mothers Day. I always envisioned Mother’s Day being as being married with 2 kids with a loving and helpful Husband who would serve breakfast in bed on a tray with flowers. I know, keep dreaming. Well that ship has sailed. Been divorced twice, one of my sons was killed when he was almost 2 years old and it’s now just my oldest son and me. We will see what the day brings discussion wise about Mother’s Day.

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